Anxiety and binge eating (II)

Lots of things make me irritable. I just spent this entire afternoon, trying to deep breathe and relax my muscles to NOT build up tension in my body and I still swore at the woman who tried to pinch my parking spot (she didn't hear me), and stomped around the kitchen in a fury when my husband stuck dog meat in the bowl I had next to me and was about to use to cook cabbage in. But I feel good now ... Really good. I absolutely am making progress.

I am feeling exceptionally positive right now.

I keep thinking that all the things I know about binge eating now, must have been things I already knew before. Possibly, I could go back to what I wrote a year or more in the past, and find all the things I know that relate to it, already written down. I do keep coming across things that I have previously looked at, which seem to be pointing straight to what seems like a revelation now. But I don't remember having these thoughts before, and I don't remember seeing anyone else say what I think now. Again, as with my own words, others have said things that point straight this way - but I didn't hear what they said as meaning this exact thing. Maybe it was because I didn't think of myself as having a problem with anxiety and maybe it was because I didn't recognize that I even had a problem with binge eating until around this time last year.

Here's the anxiety and binge eating summary (so far). I can influence the amount of anxiety I have a lot. I can try to change the issues that stress me (useful, slow and difficult), and I can try to deal with the issues that come up in a way that doesn't increase my anxiety (useful, quick, repetitious). I can do things that reduce it. When I reduce it enough the binge eating goes away.

:) That's a short story so short that it seems almost untruthful to me because so much is left out. Still it seems like a revelation to me just now.